what's happened in the past 5 months!!!

Oh lord, so much has happened since the last time I posted.

Long story short:
Came back to cali, my apartment was fucked up beyond belief. I had mold growing on my ceiling in the hallway, the ceiling in my hallway closet caved while I was gone, yeah housing failed to call me, but they did leave a note on my door. Idiots. They knew I was gone!!! The first few days back were really sad. But then I called one of the wives id knew from before and from that day on to when our hubbys got home we were inseperable. I even went up to san francisco with her for a week =] then the night we got back... I got a call from my husband it started with "well I have good news and bad news" I knew something was wrong I could tell from the tone in his voice.... well he broke his thumb playing baseball with some of the guys, and he left a few days after that, spent a few days in germany then they decided to send him to san diego to do the surgery there. He came home mid november, I drove to san diego to go get him and oh lord was that the most akward homecoming ever, I walk into a hospital room where he was asleep, and sharing the rom with 3 other guys. He woke up and was all drugged up. But he's fine now thumb is still healing, he doesn't have complete movement back yet, but is working on it. The rest of the guys came home 2 weeks later, oh yeah and hubby got two weeks convalescent leave after his surgery so that was awesome! =] but all the guys came home and everyone is doing good, I've made quite a few friends out here, which is awesome! Still don't have a job but that might change friday =] we had the marine corps ball end of january and then spent the rest of the weekend in vegas which was awesome.

That's pretty much the important stuff. I'll keep posting though I miss the blogging world.

bad dream and update!

So last night i was laying in bed trying to fall asleep, eventually of course i did. then i woke up because one of my dogs was having her puppies. so i helped her through that, about a 3 hour process and then passed out. everything went well, she has 4 beautiful pups 2 boys and 2 girls. I'll post pics tomorrow.

back to last night and falling asleep... in my dream i was at home with my mom and sister just hanging out during the day. The doorbell rang and i walked over to answer it (OK pause, my door has two glass rectangles and there all different kinds of shapes and cuts and what not but i can see outside) so then i see two men with dark blue long sleeved shirts on and other color like red and yellow and as i walked closer i realized it was two men in dressed blues. i stood there and paused for a second and turned around and walked into the kitchen because i knew why they were here. i put my hands on my head and i started freaking out my mom and sister were confused as to why i didn't answer and why i was freaking out. i just couldn't say anything i didn't know what to do or what to say so my mother assuming i was being over dramatic and assuming it wasn't important walked over to the door and opened it... they didn't ask if i was home or even if i lived there. my mom just welcomed them in like it was no biggie. so there i was in the kitchen and i see them come in and think "please lord don't tell me this is real" but then i notice something kind of funny they were wearing the dress blues blouse and blue jeans. i was thrown off, still freaking out i walked into the living room and I'm like "who are you?!?!? what is going on?!?!" (very bitchy tone) everyone looked at me like i was a crazy woman and one said "oh we just wanted to stop by and talk, see how everyone was doing." while I'm standing there on the verge of a heart attack. i eventually calm down and realize they weren't delivering any bad news (THANK GOD!) and then i think my dream just trailed off into nothingness. it was kind of a bizarre dream.... and scary too.

but in real life hubby is fine, he actually called early and we got to talk for a little bit, so that was nice. he should be home in less then 2 months!! hopefully before thanksgiving, but no date is official yet.

I'll be leaving thursday to head back to california. kind of sad about leaving texas but i have to get back to the apartment and kill all the spiders that have decided my apartment is there home too! im definately going to buy some bug bombs before i go and a crap load or raid. i can deal with pretty much any bug, cockroaches i just kill with a shoe but amazingly i have never seen one in our apartment in cali but i have seen a few spiders, and i hate spiders, with a passion, they are scary and jump and have too many legs and ughhhh. i hate them.

well tomorrow i will be packing up the rest of my stuff to head back to california so i'm not stressing on wednesday and can spend time with people and say my goodbyes (even though i'll be back around christmas) but it means alot to them, so why not?

well thats all for tonight! take care everyone!

good times with good people.

if you have never been to downtown austin, tx. then you need to go. its pretty amazing, im sure ten times better when you're actually 21 or older, but even me being 19 its fun.

last night i went to a gay club with my cousin and some friends, the club is called oilcan harry's also known as OCH. and we just happened to go on the strip contest night, so there were about 8 gay guys dancing around in their underwear, hah some of them were pretty cute. all in all it was a fun night. well excluding my shoes.... i wore knee high black heel boots. im not good with heels.... wedges arent too bad. but i never wear heels... ever. not even to prom....

im deff gunna have to say gay clubs are much better then straight clubs. and man some of those guys could dance!

i sure am going to miss texas when i leave. but ill be back in a few months so it wont be horrible or anything. i would really like to go to a club in LA, when hubby gets back im going to convince him that we should go spend a weekend in LA.

well not sure what else to blog about....

ill update later!

It's final!

I'm moving back to Cali next thursday! dinally got everything figured out. plans are final! the dates has changed so much this past week and a half, seriously like everyday something comes up and i have to change it!! but no more! deff a relief!

in other news, i havent talked to hubby in a few days. but last time we talked he said their flight date to leave afghanistan keeps getting pushed up so he could be home sooner then expected!! keeping my fingers crossed for that!

finally got my car fixed, cost me $700!!! i was not too happy about that, i actually cried... well it was after i got the call telling me that total.

everything else is good, allergies are acting up a little.

hmm well thats all!

I love my husband but...

I'm not gunna lie, sometimes having him around isn't too horrible, like...

• Being able to blare my country music loud enough that my speakers are about to blow out. (the good lord didn't love my husband enough, to bless him with the priviledge of being born in the great state of texas. that's why he can't appreciate a good country song)
• Buying ice cream with out the fear that it will be gone the next morning when i wake up.
• wearing his clothes without him saying " you know i wanted to wear that shirt today.."
• opening a pack of cigarettes without knowing that half of them will mysteriously grow legs and walk away when i'm not looking.
  
• wearing what i want to wear and when i want to wear it with out hearing "your not really going to wear that are you..."
• being able to go to sleep everynight when i wan to because i didn't have to give a certain someone a 20 min back massage.
• waking up and not feeling like someone took my bed in the night and stuck it in a meat locker. (he seriously outs the thermostat down to 50 everynight)
• being able to watch my girl shows without hearing "damn she's hot"
• And last but not least, learning to appreciate how blessed i am to have the man i have. sometimes when were together we get in silly arguments, and i take for granted how lucky i am. but when he's away you just love him that much more.
  

i know some of you may be reading this and thinking wow he sound like a jerk. haha but he's not i promise, we're that couple that jokes about getting divorced... and that usually leads to people around us gasping and saying "thats not something you should be joking about!" but we're always being silly, it's just how we are.

if any of my readers would like to comment on what certain things they like to do when hubby's not around, please feel free to leave a comment! =]

Ridiculous.

so as of today i'm unemployed. let me tell you... it feels like a huge weight has been lifted off my shoulders. so paychecks came in today, and my district manager thought it'd be fun to have me drive all around austin in order for me to get it. we haven't been on good terms lately, but i did apologize for being rude, and told him that it's nothing against him. but of course he still insists to be a complete jerk. lesson learned: never work at a franchise ever again.

in other news... i think i'm going to be moving back to california next weekend or early next week. there are still a few problems....#1 my car... well lets just say its a POS . it made it back from california in april, but i'm kind of hesitant of driving it back. i think the transmission is going out, but i really don't have the money to go to a car garage and have them look at everything, to tell me whats wrong with it, even then they'd probably say its something really expensive that i absolutely need. so i'm gunna take my chances, heh. hopefully it will all be ok. #2 awhile back my husband told one of his friends that him and his fiance could stay, in the extra bedroom we have in our apartment. they're going to get married on post-deplyment leave, and we're letting them stay with us till they finally get bumped up on the waiting list, and get their own place. the thing is the girl wants to move her stuff into the apartment before the guys get back. so finally last night my husband gave me her phone number, i called her and it went to voicemail, so i left a message. tried calling her again but it went to voicemail again. see i've never met this girl... and the guys are just expecting us to live together until they come back? akward much? I mean i'm the kind of person that gets along with everyone, i'm sure we'll get along but it is going to be weird for awhile.... so i was gunna wait and see when's good for her so we could go together. but who knows i'll try calling again tommorrow. if i don't get ahold of her by thursday then i'll leave without her. i don't know if shes planning on driving her car out there too or what. but i'm crossing my fingers that everything will work out, and go smoothly. but only time can tell!

hubbys getting a little money happy, he wants to buy a new car when he gets back.... he keeps changing his mind on what kind of car. but i know he's looking at spending 1300-1500. he mentioned it before and of course i'm the level headed one when it comes to stuff like this, and i've told him well you know we should wait and talk about this when you get home, and that its not necessary right now. but of course he gets all defensive... pshh boys.

well i'll blog tommorrow.

Run baby run....

so much crap has gone on these last few days, with my job, my family and my personal life.

i almost threw all my clothes in trashbags and threw all my other crap in my car and just left for california. i honestly don't know what stopped me.

but one thing is for damn sure, i'm not coming back home to texas next time hubby gets deployed. i love my family and my friends but it adds alot more stress then i need.


thank god they have this lovely thing called whiskey that temporarily fixes your problems =]

hubby gave me an exact date as to when he should be home, but after he typed that in all caps he said "BUT THAT IS SUBJECT TO CHANGE!!!" hah but its deff getting closer and closer, i'm counting down the days.

i think i'm moving back to california next weekend, but i honestly have no idea. everything is so messed up right now that its not even worth freaking out about. i'm just gunna go with the flow and hope for the best.

tears of joy.

Not even 2 hours after my husband left base, i had left too. heading back to austin. he left the morning of my birthday. i stayed with him in the parking lot where the buses came all night he had to report in at 5 in the afternoon and they didnt leave till 5 am the next morning. so i just hung with him and his buddies we were all huddled up it the car cuz it was about 50 degrees outside. they mainly slept all night excluding their hourly formations. and i just couldnt sleep.... so i sat there and watched him sleep. knowing that i would have to spend the next 7-9 of not being able to look at his cute face or snuggle next to him while he was away in dreamland. they around 4:50 they had their final formation before they got on the buses... all night i didnt shed one tear. then those dreaded words

"ok babe, i gotta go now.."

i gave him one last kiss, then a hug and i held on for a good 30 seconds then he whispered in my ear "i love you so much"


my heart sank... i felt like i couldn't move, couldn't breathe, couldn't let go... i could feel my eyes instanly well up with tears. i gave some of the other guys quick hugs and told them to stay sfae and keep an eye on hubby. they got back in formation then i walked back over to the car as soon as i got in i had realized that the damn busses were parked behind me and it was the last few busses too. so while sitting in my car for a good 15 mins... there were these two girls standing by my car crying hysterically, that didn't help.... a sad song came on the radio.. and i was looking out my back windsheild waiting for hubby to pass so i could blow him a kiss, he waved at me then he was out of my sight.... i didnt completely lose it just a few tears and what not, i was being as strong as i could.

i drove back to our apartment there on base got all of my clothes threw them in trashbags, got all the important papers i would need got some stuff i didn't want to leave behind and put my husbands millions of dvd's in some boxes to take with me. and for some weird reason he wanted me to take all of his A&F jeans back to texas cause he said he would feel better if they were in texas. silly kid.

my mom and sister had came down to say goodbye to hubby and drive back to texas with me so i wouldn't have to make the 1300 mile trip alone. since it was also coincedentally my birthday after i threw everyhting in the car we had stopped in the next town over where my great aunt lives and we had breakfast with her.

after that we were on the road back to texas, my mother was driving and i was in the back. i decided i'd listen to my husbands ipod so i put on his favortie song... at that moment i lost it i was crying hysterically for about an hour and a half. i dont think ive ever been that upset ever in my life.



fast forward five months and one week...

i was driving home from work today, and i was listening to a CD i had burnt a while back, and that song was on it, and of course i started crying.... not the " i hate my life/ can't i just crawl in a hole and hide till he comes home?" kind of tears. these were tears of joy.... i was thinking about how that was the song that i just let all the hiding of my emotions go..... and to think how much stornger i am now and how its almost done... i just felt so relieved..... i seriously thought i would not be able to make it through this, that i wouldnt be able to function at all. but its almost been five and a half moths, and i'm ok, i stil laugh and have fun with my friends, im not constantly crying like i thought i would be.

its almost over..... he's almost home.

nothing is like this feeling of great accomplishment, and your prize is being back with the person you love.

i like the prize, but not the game.....

best day of this whole damn deployment!

So hubby called yesterday...... AND he got official word of when they should be home and gave me a 10 day window!!!! i got really excited and started jumping around and my voice got very squealy so for about 5 mins after he told me he couldn't understand anything i was saying hah.

but its nice to actually know instead of the "well my buddy heard from another guy that we'll be home around this day..."

so after hearing the news, i decided that come i will be going back out to california in a month and staying there. then of course for post-deplotment leave we'll be coming back here to austin.

but i'm alot happier then I seem.

my puppy is doing good. he still won't put any pressure on his broken paw even though he has the splint on. but it's kinda funny to watch him run around the house on 3 legs.



Now onto Ike, from what i've seen on the news ( i was watching it all day yesterday) houston and galveston got it bad. be sure to keep them in your prayers! we didn't get any rain from ike here in austin. it was kinda windy yesterday morning though.

well i'll blog more tommorrow!

not good

So johnny cash (my puppy) broke two bones in his paw.

I took him to the vet this morning, they took an X-ray, sedated him and put a splint on him and gave us some pain meds for him . oh and we bought the cone so he didn't bite at it...

cost me $300...

I would of much rather broken my hand, because at least i have insurance.... but at least he won't be in pain, and it will heal and all that good stuff.

It's pretty windy here in Austin, thank to hurricane Ike. today has been kinda crappy so far =/